[Monday 10:45pm] dear diary, i wanna die my life sucks booooooooooohooooooooo. no seriously tho i hate alot of people. everyone is quitting smoking fuck that. im dying as soon as possible. i love amanda and i got a hoop in my nose today.it looks goofy and i have long arms. i go to a fake high school now everyone smokes menthol. i like parliaments. im getting a moog tomorrow yeah. fuck yeah. (1) comment

[Friday 12:45am] i hate going to school. i love my friends. i love my band. today i had to go to a therapist. she asked me if i wanted to kill myself. i said no. she asked why. haha i dont know why. comment

[Tuesday 12:24am] my hair is starting to get kind of long. ill probably grow it out for a little longer and do some crazy shit with it, im not sure yet. im still working on finding a new school. i think im going crazy too. ill probably die soon. (1) comment

[Thursday 12:55am] im going to drop out of school i think. (1) comment

[Saturday 12:12am] my band gals make dirty sex is playing a show tonight. im pretty fucking excited. except theres lots of black people there. (2) comment

[Tuesday 12:18am] [ music | the format ] today i went to school, its getting old. i dont really have many friends there except the few who i love to death but i remember enjoying myself alot more last year. i had a seizure this weekend. mark was there for me, marco and frank were ready to come get me. i love all of them. i want to meet a girl. one that isnt crazy, or isnt a cunt, or doesnt forget about me within two weeks. girls make dirty sex is getting back into making dirty sex. mike rochette is playing second guitar for us now and im really happy with how our last practice went. hopefully well continue. im doing well in school. its gonna stay that way i think. i think im going to get amber to cut my hair again soon. i bought blonde hair dye a long time ago. maybe ill put some in. idk. i miss jon perrelly. i definatley need to give him a call soon. thats all thats on my mind. peace. comment

dear diary [Tuesday 9:30pm] [ mood | apathetic ] diary, today i went to school. first day in my classes and i have no friends in most of them. i dont care though because i want to do well this year. i brought work home to do and im about to do it right now. i went to work today. not a bad day at all. easy shit, only had to make one tray of tomatoes and clean the place up a bit. my boss just doesnt understand me though. idk diary, i guess your the only one who understands me. i kind of like this girl who smell like terrible terrible mold. and i kind of hate the spill canvis, i hate them so much i cant spell their name right. and no one understands me. except you diary. my guidence couiciler dresses weird. she wears these long red and black striped socks. she just doesnt understand me diary, your the only one who does. no one will talk to me on i chat. i think its cause no one understands me. i think your the only one who understands me diary. my life is spiralling down into a black abyss and its sufficating me. and i think thats happening because your the only one who understands me, diary. well diary i need to go do my intergrated 2 homework. yeah i was hoping i would be in geometry this year. but instead they moved me down three levels in math. and i think its because they dont understand me. only you understand me diary. comment

dear diary [Monday 7:54pm] [ mood | I'M GAY. ] im at camillias her closet smells like mold I'm totally kidding, though. She's awesome, SRSLY. We went to the park. She scared away the frog, bambi, and the kids I wanted to play with, because of her awful, awful smell. I don't know, diary. Sometimes, I think you're the only one who understands me. fuck. SMSL LOLOL ROFL. comment

dear diary [Sunday 1:44am] [ mood | apathetic ] well diary. 12 was fucking amazing. i almost had a seizure. corinne and i broke up. mark got a girfriend there in a few hours. i hung out with camillia and her friends alot at the show. gave out flyers. went back to work. my mom bought another hair dryer, so noww it wont take me three hours to get ready. i want to have band practice. i dont know diary, sometimes i think your the only one who understands me. im going shopping tomorrow. cause im not allowed in class untill i have pants without holes in them. i just wanna do well this year. today in work i cried. cause of the unions. it didnt really hurt but it wasnt pleasing at all. fuck. (1) comment

dear diary [Thursday 6:48pm] [ mood | apathetic ] well diary im running kind of short on friends these days. marks all pissed of cause he thinks i want to replace him with derrick in the band. havent seen much of marco. i miss them both along with derrick, jay and chuck. corinne seems pissed at me. i love school tho. ive never been made fun of so much in my whole life, by teachers and everyone haha i love it. hung out with alex jon and tara yesterday. we went to the mall. i quit shitty ass blimpie today. i might get another job, i might not. i want to go to class. i dont want to be in sense anymore. im pissed alot, im happy alot. i wanna be home, i wanna be out. im going to fucking 12 friday. whos going. let me know. god diary, sometimes i think your the only one who understands me. fuck. (1) comment

dear diary [Monday 1:14pm] [ mood | apathetic ] mark is down the shore. douche bag. yesterday, hung out with corinne, i could see her for like 5 miniutes and it would make my day but anywho, we walked the tracks into oakland to meet stevie. we got their went to taco bell then got a ride to pompton lakes highschool to see the fire works. corinne and stevie had to walk back to oakland so they left kind of early, then i met up with frank, jessie, and marco. we went back to town, met up with vin, harris, chuck, tiff, derrick, jay, doug, and st pierre. marco and i learned how to swing dance. my mom came and picked me up at ritas. i fell asleep with my jeans, my shoes, everything on. it was the uncomfortable experiance. now im probably going to go take the bus into town or maybe even pompton lakes and walk to oakland. its like the last day of summer. fuck. comment

dear diary [Thursday 12:55am] [ mood | apathetic ] is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run dry i am the watch you always wear but you forget to wind. if i could i would shrink myself sink through your skin to your blood cells remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure. (1) comment

dear diary [Tuesday 12:34am] [ mood | apathetic ] today was my first day of work.. FUCK BLIMPIE. im qutting and going to ragshop probably. alright well i worked my ass off in the hot ass backroom cutting tomatoes and shit from 4-7. so i got the fuck out of there and probably wont show up wed. mike, marco, joe and big mike picked me up at stop and shop around 8. i was supposed to see corinne but that fell through so i went into town. we were all just hanging out up at cvs then we got kicked out by the cops. me, mark, and tom then went to wendys. thats when i got the best phone call of the night. corinne was going to meet us there. so i saw corinne. they had to leave tho and i guess i did too cause my mom made me come home early. well overall a decent day. except for blimpie. i love mark and marco and ill probably hang out with them tomorrow just like today and everyday of my life. i dont diary, sometimes i think your the only one who understands me haha. love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love. (1) comment

dear diary [Monday 12:47pm] [ mood | apathetic ] yesterday um i hung out with mark and marco and we were sitting up at cvs and jay came and we started walking to marks. on the way we saw a van full of wayne heads and they were calling us emo faggots and shit haha so we ran to marks and got baseball bats. of corse i got the small youth baseball bat but whatever. someone called alex, then him and his friends came. and then vin came and there was never actually a fight and im not that good at writing in diary. but its the only thing that understands me haha. so then mark and i went to brits. jay, derrick, chuck, tiff, and marco showed up. so were there for a bit and derrick, chuck, and me go to get something at quick check. so i was standing outside and these kids in a monte carlo pulled up and were like looks like you need a hair cut emo faggot haha the second time that day that happened to me. so chuck and derrick wanted to fight them. later on when we all left brits except mark we saw that car again and we spent baisically the whole night trying to find them so we could fight em. it never happened tho. marco was going crazy screaming at them it was the funniest thing i had ever seen. yesterday i also wanted to see corinne i dont know, that didnt work out though. todays my first day of work at blimpie im working 4-8 and hopefully her and st pierre are gonna come get me after and ill get to see her. i love to write in the lj. (2) comment

i got the lj. [Sunday 1:26am] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | none ] im timmy and i write in the lj. (1) comment

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